Do You Believe You’re Going to Be Okay?
"…‘I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!’" Mark 9:24
You know…I am having a hard time right now.
I’m just feeling blue. It could be SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder)? You know not enough light or Vitamin D in this cold snowy season.
It could be just minor winter blues. I had one of the best holiday seasons ever…Right up there with the perfect Christmas season of old, when my kids were glee-filled, Santa was real, and we did at least a week of holiday family hanging out. My three younger grown-up girls were home for a week…together in this house! And we got to visit with my oldest—Lauren, hubby Tony, and grandbaby Ema a couple of times…together.
It’s not terrible.
I’m on the brink of tears most of the time. Little trickles, not the waterworks flowing. I’m moved, touched easily. And maybe a little touchy too. Sensitive. But I’m not laid out on the floor or anything. And if you know me, you know, I’m not afraid of tears. Sometimes they clear the way. (Click to tweet)
It’s a time of new normal and looking ahead.
This past Fall I busied myself so I didn’t feel too lonely in our now childless home. But I haven’t been able to keep that grief at bay in the colder grayer slower days of winter. It comes and goes. When I hear the gleeful sounds of neighborhood kids, rosy cheeked, snowsuit bound, making snow angels and snowmen and sleigh riding…well, I miss my kids! I have hot cocoa, marshmallows, chocolate chip cookies, wood for the fire, but the kids aren’t here…
We’ve got to think about moving.
We’ve got a lovely home in a beautiful town that I grew up in and where we’ve raised our kids. But the taxes are just too high. We’re slowly stepping toward our next home. Where will it be? A big move to another state? A little move down the road apiece? This Spring? The next? Or the next after that? What do we have to do to prepare? How will it ever get done?
I am not comfortable in uncertainty. But this is where I am. (Click to tweet)
I think back to last year when my beloved friend Sharon was going through all these huge changes. As she described the year that lie ahead—relocation, selling her home, kids getting married, her and her hubby moving in with her mom—to the 15 women gathered to share stories, share our lives, she kept saying assuredly quietly, “But I know, it’s going to be okay. It’s going to be okay…”
And now I’m reading Holley Armstrong’s new book, You’re Going to Be Okay. (Click to Purchase)
And I believe this. This is truth. It’s going to be okay. I’m going to be okay. Sometimes you just have to go through stuff… (Click to tweet)
And believe me, I’ve gone through some tough stuff. I know you have too.
We’re going to be okay, you and me. Right? I'd love to hear how you're doing...Leave a comment!
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